He knows she doesn't mean to be hurtful, but at the same time, he knows he deserves it. He caused her pain after all, and as they say, you get what you give. Serves him right for not saying anything, for not even trying to call or so much as write her. He may have had his reasons, which at the time seemed most logical and plausible, but right now he's struggling to make sense of them, let alone explain them to her.
So, he listens to her in silence, unmoving, because that's about the only thing he can do for her right now. To let her spill all those thoughts and feelings on him, to let her unload what she's been holding in all this time, because of him.
"I know."
All of that, he means. That he was cruel, that he hurt her, that he's a coward and an asshole, and that she loves him but wishes she didn't. He both hopes and dreads that she might not love him one day, too - but right now he can't even lie that that one remark does soothe the ache in his heart, just a little bit.
"i thought you'd be better off away from me. I didn't want SHIELD to find me either..." He trails off. Guess that's pointless now. If she's here, they probably know where he is already. "I'm sorry. I just... it's all I know, running. It's not an excuse, I know, and I know I am a coward. I just... wanted you to be happy, to be alright."
It looks like he's failed spectacularly.
"I'm sorry, Patricia. I'll leave. I promise you won't have to see me again. Please, just..." His expressions twists again, and he swallows dryly, his voice unsure. "Remember the good times, please? And that I love you too."
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So, he listens to her in silence, unmoving, because that's about the only thing he can do for her right now. To let her spill all those thoughts and feelings on him, to let her unload what she's been holding in all this time, because of him.
"I know."
All of that, he means. That he was cruel, that he hurt her, that he's a coward and an asshole, and that she loves him but wishes she didn't. He both hopes and dreads that she might not love him one day, too - but right now he can't even lie that that one remark does soothe the ache in his heart, just a little bit.
"i thought you'd be better off away from me. I didn't want SHIELD to find me either..." He trails off. Guess that's pointless now. If she's here, they probably know where he is already. "I'm sorry. I just... it's all I know, running. It's not an excuse, I know, and I know I am a coward. I just... wanted you to be happy, to be alright."
It looks like he's failed spectacularly.
"I'm sorry, Patricia. I'll leave. I promise you won't have to see me again. Please, just..." His expressions twists again, and he swallows dryly, his voice unsure. "Remember the good times, please? And that I love you too."