He doesn't even know what he's feeling, let alone what he's doing or what face he's making. He teeters along that edge that he felt the last time, except now he doesn't draw away, nor does he cower. He's scared beyond any measure of words or thoughts, but he pushes past that fear the best he can.

Closing his eyes, he lets go - completely and all at once.

The sensations flood him like a dam's just broke and let them loose, his mouth open, a choked breath first leaving him, then stopping, his entire body freezing in place as he comes into her mouth, finally a quiet, long and stuttered moan slipping past his lips. His mind is a complete blank for the first time in what feels like an eternity, and there's nothing - no control, no fear, no anger -, just a complete sense of bliss that he never thought he would get to experience again.